reminiscence

well after losing a Friend (gary leon robert, rest in peace), i started to search back the msgs that he sent me in friendster, i do feel at that time that i've missed out a good opportunity on someone who is so good and perfect. so i found out the last msg he sent me was my 2007 bday msg and that's all, we both did not msg each other anymore in friendster.

you may think i'm evil and cold hearted that only after you had passed away only i started searching back and looking at your profile and now everything is too late to speak or msg you, my dear friend. though we did not meet each other before officially but i believe we've met before, it's just that we were too young that time and these little things will not last long enough till our adulthood.

with this unfortunate incident of yours, i really feel regret for not keeping in touch with you and i also feel sorry for you for leaving everything and everyone else behind especially your family. i understand that it is not your wish or wat so ever but i hope you're enjoying your other part of life in another world where i believe you'll be loved by your God, Jesus.

your incident taught me a very good lesson which is i know it's a bit dumb but i do take it as a life lesson to learn; which is to appreciate friendships, relationships, friends and mostly family members. you've showed me that life is fragile. and your incident teach to to grab hold of any guy that is super perfect and as good as you, never missed out that opportunity, gather up my courage and just appreciate every feeling i have over whosoever in future. i'll always remember that. i got to know that your birthday is somewhere around the corner which is 18/8/1987. i promise that i'll always remember this date or perhaps i'll find a guy who is born in this day and probably share the same personality as you...hehehe, just joking !!

and while i was reading the msg that gary sent me in friendster i also read other old msgs sent to me by my friends, from the msg i could sense that all of us used to be so close and can really just talk bout anything or perhaps crap about anything, and now all those who send msg to me in friendster, honestly i'm not keeping in touch with them at all..i'm not msg-ing or sms-ing or IM-ing them. or even email them.....

should i or should i not ?

cheers,
Jenny (16/8/2009, 12.19am)

p.s to gary's family members, stay strong
to gary, hope you'll have a better life and journey in ur next life