Seriously, i love to read my blog over and over again..Cause it will show how naive I used to be and how i have "grow" over time.
anyway, just a post on the discovery that i have made...for first time in my life, i am starting to be competitive in my studies, I know it's good but in the same time also it's bad.
Cause no matter how good and how hard you've tried, there are people somewhere out there that do better and harder than you. So how now ?
It's not that I should not try my best, but knowing after i've tried my best, I feel frustrated after knowing I can't achieve my desire results.
So tell me how ?
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Saturday, November 21, 2009
TO "GROW"
today is the day, the first time i am presenting our research in psychology research colloquium. Received comments - both positive and negative.
"you need competition to see improvement"
"you need both competition, criticisms, praises, comments, etc. to be stronger, stay stronger, reinforce you to be stronger"
and to all the Michael Jackson's fans out there, i am sorry that I, Jenny Eng Tsai Ch'ang has made a mistake by thinking "Thriller" as rock genre of music. *bows*
"you need competition to see improvement"
"you need both competition, criticisms, praises, comments, etc. to be stronger, stay stronger, reinforce you to be stronger"
and to all the Michael Jackson's fans out there, i am sorry that I, Jenny Eng Tsai Ch'ang has made a mistake by thinking "Thriller" as rock genre of music. *bows*
Saturday, November 14, 2009
For the first time....
There are many first times______happening this month of November 2009.
1. The first time that i could not finish a exam (MKT201-consumer behavior) especially finals. It requires us to do a case study and 3 essays from the 6 essay questions in 3 hours time and the lecturer marks according how many pages you've wrote, for one full page you only get 4-5 marks. I only manage to finish the case study (40%) and 1 and 1/2 essay (which is 20% if i got full marks). I can't even imagine whether can i pass this final paper. I hope to pass it, cause don't wanna repeat it !!! case study at least I'll get 30 marks or more and the essay that i did i hope for i'll get 20 marks...just cukup makan to pass the exam and i'm super blessed for it.
2. The first time I'm presenting in Psychology Research Colloquium. Yes it will be the first time me and my group are presenting on our experiment/research on the effects of music on memory..yup i know it's a kinda-boring-everyone-also-kinda-do-memory-experiment feel, but it's an experience for me. It's like showing everyone what we've found, all the hard work that we've put in the last 2 months will be paid off....especially during our mock presentation (though i got only 1.8 out of 4 %), it was the first time Miss Winnee said to us "I like the fact you guys are well prepared but you guys are just too long-winded" (Cheong, 2009). It's ok miss winnee i know you are pro in memory experiment and u've listened to 7 previous mock presentation and probably you find our experiment has no creativity and seems boring to you, but the moment you praise on our well preparedness, i totally change my perception about you! It is also the first time that i don't feel so scared/nervous/anxious talking to you.
3. The first time I change my preception towards Miss Winnee and the first time I realized that Miss Winnee could be such a nice and understanding person. The first time I experience how miss winnee could control the whole class of 200+ students, and it is the only lecture that every student in the class pays attention to the lecturer lecturing- that is miss winnee's class le. All this while, I was taught that if you can't change the world, therefore you should change instead of making the world to change. But i really admire and salute Miss Winnee, she doesn't change her way. Instead, she makes the world change according to how she does/works on her stuff. *SALUTE* She came into class ytdy (friday) and extended our assignment due date. Not only that, she also allows us to leave 20 minutes early.
4. The first time I have chest pain..it's as though like those in panic attack disorder. I feel it is so difficult to breathe, can't really talk and focus or pay attention or concentrate. I would say 2 chest pain in a row of a week. I hope i'm not panicking and there's other reasons for it (PMS).
5. The first time that I am so out-dated about the world and everything. I seriously don't know what is going around the world. It is because I am so BUSY WITH MY ASSIGNMENTS. (i know it is an excuse le)
That's all I guess ! Well there are only 5 first times, not as much as i've said. But these 5 first times cause a major change in my life.
1. The first time that i could not finish a exam (MKT201-consumer behavior) especially finals. It requires us to do a case study and 3 essays from the 6 essay questions in 3 hours time and the lecturer marks according how many pages you've wrote, for one full page you only get 4-5 marks. I only manage to finish the case study (40%) and 1 and 1/2 essay (which is 20% if i got full marks). I can't even imagine whether can i pass this final paper. I hope to pass it, cause don't wanna repeat it !!! case study at least I'll get 30 marks or more and the essay that i did i hope for i'll get 20 marks...just cukup makan to pass the exam and i'm super blessed for it.
2. The first time I'm presenting in Psychology Research Colloquium. Yes it will be the first time me and my group are presenting on our experiment/research on the effects of music on memory..yup i know it's a kinda-boring-everyone-also-kinda-do-memory-experiment feel, but it's an experience for me. It's like showing everyone what we've found, all the hard work that we've put in the last 2 months will be paid off....especially during our mock presentation (though i got only 1.8 out of 4 %), it was the first time Miss Winnee said to us "I like the fact you guys are well prepared but you guys are just too long-winded" (Cheong, 2009). It's ok miss winnee i know you are pro in memory experiment and u've listened to 7 previous mock presentation and probably you find our experiment has no creativity and seems boring to you, but the moment you praise on our well preparedness, i totally change my perception about you! It is also the first time that i don't feel so scared/nervous/anxious talking to you.
3. The first time I change my preception towards Miss Winnee and the first time I realized that Miss Winnee could be such a nice and understanding person. The first time I experience how miss winnee could control the whole class of 200+ students, and it is the only lecture that every student in the class pays attention to the lecturer lecturing- that is miss winnee's class le. All this while, I was taught that if you can't change the world, therefore you should change instead of making the world to change. But i really admire and salute Miss Winnee, she doesn't change her way. Instead, she makes the world change according to how she does/works on her stuff. *SALUTE* She came into class ytdy (friday) and extended our assignment due date. Not only that, she also allows us to leave 20 minutes early.
4. The first time I have chest pain..it's as though like those in panic attack disorder. I feel it is so difficult to breathe, can't really talk and focus or pay attention or concentrate. I would say 2 chest pain in a row of a week. I hope i'm not panicking and there's other reasons for it (PMS).
5. The first time that I am so out-dated about the world and everything. I seriously don't know what is going around the world. It is because I am so BUSY WITH MY ASSIGNMENTS. (i know it is an excuse le)
That's all I guess ! Well there are only 5 first times, not as much as i've said. But these 5 first times cause a major change in my life.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
there's such ppl existing in this world >??
well i just wanna blog about my stressed moments and also frustration moment le.....i can't believe there's such people living and existing in this world le (referring to the 3 fellas/lazybumps - i can consider or address them as managers/supervisors/ queens /king)
they don't care about anything about the assignment, not only that created mess and shit for me to "clean up" in the end !!! please these sort/kind of homosapiens, why are you here in this world ah ? they seem to be so laid back about everything...care so much less about the 206 assignment....quoting miss winnee "what is this ??" all these ppl are just shit le !! i'm being rude here and i don't care...if i can i wanna use the most worst bad words in the universe to address them !!!
they don't care about anything about the assignment, not only that created mess and shit for me to "clean up" in the end !!! please these sort/kind of homosapiens, why are you here in this world ah ? they seem to be so laid back about everything...care so much less about the 206 assignment....quoting miss winnee "what is this ??" all these ppl are just shit le !! i'm being rude here and i don't care...if i can i wanna use the most worst bad words in the universe to address them !!!
Saturday, August 15, 2009
reminiscence
well after losing a Friend (gary leon robert, rest in peace), i started to search back the msgs that he sent me in friendster, i do feel at that time that i've missed out a good opportunity on someone who is so good and perfect. so i found out the last msg he sent me was my 2007 bday msg and that's all, we both did not msg each other anymore in friendster.
you may think i'm evil and cold hearted that only after you had passed away only i started searching back and looking at your profile and now everything is too late to speak or msg you, my dear friend. though we did not meet each other before officially but i believe we've met before, it's just that we were too young that time and these little things will not last long enough till our adulthood.
with this unfortunate incident of yours, i really feel regret for not keeping in touch with you and i also feel sorry for you for leaving everything and everyone else behind especially your family. i understand that it is not your wish or wat so ever but i hope you're enjoying your other part of life in another world where i believe you'll be loved by your God, Jesus.
your incident taught me a very good lesson which is i know it's a bit dumb but i do take it as a life lesson to learn; which is to appreciate friendships, relationships, friends and mostly family members. you've showed me that life is fragile. and your incident teach to to grab hold of any guy that is super perfect and as good as you, never missed out that opportunity, gather up my courage and just appreciate every feeling i have over whosoever in future. i'll always remember that. i got to know that your birthday is somewhere around the corner which is 18/8/1987. i promise that i'll always remember this date or perhaps i'll find a guy who is born in this day and probably share the same personality as you...hehehe, just joking !!
and while i was reading the msg that gary sent me in friendster i also read other old msgs sent to me by my friends, from the msg i could sense that all of us used to be so close and can really just talk bout anything or perhaps crap about anything, and now all those who send msg to me in friendster, honestly i'm not keeping in touch with them at all..i'm not msg-ing or sms-ing or IM-ing them. or even email them.....
should i or should i not ?
cheers,
Jenny (16/8/2009, 12.19am)
p.s to gary's family members, stay strong
to gary, hope you'll have a better life and journey in ur next life
you may think i'm evil and cold hearted that only after you had passed away only i started searching back and looking at your profile and now everything is too late to speak or msg you, my dear friend. though we did not meet each other before officially but i believe we've met before, it's just that we were too young that time and these little things will not last long enough till our adulthood.
with this unfortunate incident of yours, i really feel regret for not keeping in touch with you and i also feel sorry for you for leaving everything and everyone else behind especially your family. i understand that it is not your wish or wat so ever but i hope you're enjoying your other part of life in another world where i believe you'll be loved by your God, Jesus.
your incident taught me a very good lesson which is i know it's a bit dumb but i do take it as a life lesson to learn; which is to appreciate friendships, relationships, friends and mostly family members. you've showed me that life is fragile. and your incident teach to to grab hold of any guy that is super perfect and as good as you, never missed out that opportunity, gather up my courage and just appreciate every feeling i have over whosoever in future. i'll always remember that. i got to know that your birthday is somewhere around the corner which is 18/8/1987. i promise that i'll always remember this date or perhaps i'll find a guy who is born in this day and probably share the same personality as you...hehehe, just joking !!
and while i was reading the msg that gary sent me in friendster i also read other old msgs sent to me by my friends, from the msg i could sense that all of us used to be so close and can really just talk bout anything or perhaps crap about anything, and now all those who send msg to me in friendster, honestly i'm not keeping in touch with them at all..i'm not msg-ing or sms-ing or IM-ing them. or even email them.....
should i or should i not ?
cheers,
Jenny (16/8/2009, 12.19am)
p.s to gary's family members, stay strong
to gary, hope you'll have a better life and journey in ur next life
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
malas
almost one year i din touch this thing..good
now i'm touching my blog becuz
i SUPER LAZY TO STUDY PSY 207
BECAUSE IT'S THE LAST SUBJECT FOR THIS FINALS
BECAUSE AFTER FINALS IS TWO MONTHS HOLIDAY
BECAUSE IT'S BORING
BECAUSE I GOT NO DIRECTION / CLUE HOW THE QUESTIONS WILL BE
THUS DE-MOTIVATING ME TO STUDY
TOTALLY LIKE GAVE UP !!!
dearest cheng yee,
i wish to believe n utilize "law of attraction'
but i think it's not user-friendly in this particular subject which i would wanna score a B+ and desperately wanting a B+ but law of attraction not motivating me at all..
i need other solution !
ok finish complaining n whining...back to singing my favourite songs!!! (see i dun even wanna touch my books-3 more chapters to go, 1 more day to exam day)
now i'm touching my blog becuz
i SUPER LAZY TO STUDY PSY 207
BECAUSE IT'S THE LAST SUBJECT FOR THIS FINALS
BECAUSE AFTER FINALS IS TWO MONTHS HOLIDAY
BECAUSE IT'S BORING
BECAUSE I GOT NO DIRECTION / CLUE HOW THE QUESTIONS WILL BE
THUS DE-MOTIVATING ME TO STUDY
TOTALLY LIKE GAVE UP !!!
dearest cheng yee,
i wish to believe n utilize "law of attraction'
but i think it's not user-friendly in this particular subject which i would wanna score a B+ and desperately wanting a B+ but law of attraction not motivating me at all..
i need other solution !
ok finish complaining n whining...back to singing my favourite songs!!! (see i dun even wanna touch my books-3 more chapters to go, 1 more day to exam day)
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