Life is so d*mn funny…i know my mid-year ezam is just next week n i’m sitting in front of my computer and bloggin….WHAT AM I THINKIN!!!! and someone who actually say she’s not a * turn out she is one of *…(sorry la i really can’t tell wat’s that)..a few days ago when i was chatting with my friend, she told me how her friends actually dun like her..she got to know from other friends which happen not from her gang, she dunno whether she wants to trust this friend a not that her gang actually dislike her..the world is full of good fakers..they just fake anything,smile and everything to survive in this society,if u dun fake u r abnormal…so i just advice her to pretend like nothin had ever happen,and so she ask " then i’ll be like them one of the faker?" it’s REALITY…then sometimes i wander whether when someone tell me that they hate being like this and like tat but from my point of view they actually are like as wat they say they dislike being..something in me just ask me to shout out, tell and say wat’s really in my heart and mind, just tell the truth and no more secrets or thinkings or so wateva cause keepin them in me and just can’t share or burst out everything is so torturing..i really wanna just spit everything out but there’s still some part of me scare of wat will ppl think of me when i tell them..i kept tellin myself not to care bout wat other ppl say or think bout me but i’m still scare of it ..
i’ve been asked " jenny why u r always happy and problems-free? i dun seem to see any day that u’re down or sad ?" till this day i dun always bring my emotions to school or in front of my family cause i dun want to be pity or sympathized by them..but is this good or bad ? to me all i need is just a hug, a long 1..so i really thank my friend who always hug me..i know i dun wanna tell her wat’s in me , what’s happening to me and i also dun wanna to burden her with my problems so all i need is a hug..thanks my dear friend and u know who u r..UR hug will be my strength to overcome my problems..
ever feel like talking to someone but they actually not listenin to wat u say at all..that’s y i think i am an idiot talking alone when * not listening..i got lots of experiences in this kind of situation..for exp *can chat with u like u both are best of the best friends ever and now just because u r little not popular than other ppl suddenly * can stop talking to u and now wat u ask or tell * ,i dunno whether * pretend not to hear it or just dun care bout it…………………………time can really change alot of things , it might be from good to bad or even bad to good…
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