uniform sucks

i really think that wearing school uniform makes me look fat…and i don’t think i can find my confidence when i’m in my school uniform…i’m much more confident with myself when i’m not in uniform..
well this coming friday is our school teacher celebration, same like last year my school cochrane will celebrate it with those sajak and syair and chorus speakin. malay songs and there isn’t any hightlights for dance or anything like pudu girls school last time..so cheng yee and lina n pei yei asked me that thursday whether to ponteng on that day n go to watch pirates of the carribean 3 in jusco cheras selatan then after movie straight to sing k…that’s totally a good plan to enjoy ourselves after the examination..i’m still thinking whether my parents allow me to skip school a not..hmmm
well yesterday i got my maths n chem marks for the mid year exam, well i reach the target i set before the exam n i manage to reach it..if u asked, my target is just to pass all the exam as the teacher only inform us a week before the exam..so i just got 32 for my chem n 52 for my maths..kinda disappointed in my maths cause i told myself because i wanted a higher marks for my maths,i want to show my maths teacher that i’m able to get an A for my maths for stpm…as for chem i’ll work harder for the next test which is the trials…trials then the real deal,stpm..then for bio i don’t dare to put so much hope on it…a pass will do,for pa i hope i’ll get an A but then i got 18 wrong for my paper 1 which is quite difficult to get an A not cause i don’t think i did well in my paper 2 although we got tips from next door..

is it really that difficult to just tell someone that u like and u r interested in them ? well last time i got this thinking that if u like a person just tell him cause who knows he might feel the same way too..so i confessed but then i got rejected so now i change my thoughts, things are not that easy and simple as wat it seems..u gotta consider all the consequences before making an important decision..i asked for my friends opinion whether to just tell him how i feel, one say don’t tell cause it’ll show like u re desperate for love and a guy.just let him come to you,show some signs.but then another say just tell him cause it’ll do no harm,if he give a no then just lead back to your normal life and just be friends but then in my point of view , once u confessed n if he rejects then i don’t think it’ll be like last time, the closeness in a friendship..i’;m sure bout that

sitting in the lrt on my way to chemistry tuition today, i think a lot bout all the life stuff..my parents kept telling me ,relationships in school life will never last forever..how true is that ?? there are just so many different point of views from different walk of life…then when there are too many choices , how do u choose and make sure that the choice that u made is right when u can’t see how the future is ?

i do see * but i just pretend i don’t…i do dislike * but i just pretend i like..so does that make me a good pretender ?