childish

the article below can only be read by those whose 18++ years and above
becuz it might contain hazardous illusions created by the blogger !!
hehehehehe ( she’s just trying to confess wat’s in her heart n mind )

when i was browsing back the emails i sent when i’m 15 and 16 years old, when i read back i dun believe wat i’ve written is so childish..like kindergarten kids arguing and teasing my friend..barely recognised it’s actually me who did sent out those emails…hehehhehe

well jenny eng tsai ch’ang here is always childish(yes, NAIVE is the most suitable word ) i mean in cantonese " tien zan"

she thought everything is as simple as ABC and tat she can just say wat’s in her heart and tat nothing will happen…she even think tat the world was flat ( well i just followed a book of course i know the world is sphere) she even thought bout telling someone something super important and serious tat it might actually influence my n someone psychological mental stuff and yet she asks someone to just forget bout it..wat can she do than just to ask someone to forget it there’s nothing more she can do dy…especially these days, these boring and nothing to do spirit after the stpm spirit it suppose to be a fun and thrillin and exciting time to enjoy ourselves…wat she did and she didn’t do it purposely, it just came like tat,just like tat :is tat she cries every night to sleep…she can’t control it..too much things n stuff n thoughts n feelins all invading her mind …poor brain!!! she’s jobless, moneyless, everything also -less la ( except brainless coz if she is she’ll not be here bloggin, so u’re brainless instead yes u the one readin now…hehehehehe just joking le..thank you very much for taking the time to read my blog and ur time to actually to get to know more who am i and care for me )

so i will learn to be selfish…cause being a kind-hearted n a good person will not survive in this evil society i must say…u be good to ppl doesn’t mean ppl will be good to u..they’ll treat u just like tat …a piece of shit or even worst "a swimming water float - in chinese " i rather ppl treat me like a piece of shit because at least i know tat person really hates me and so tat i can take pre caution and just make them vanish in my world but then those who treated me as a "water float" SUPER pretender!!!!!!!!!!!!!, pretend to be good to me and just take advantage of me to do stuff n then just kick me out and dun bother me anymore…well if YOU wanna pretend to be good to me and PREteNDED to be my friend then just save it to urself and be an OSCAR or even GOLDEN GLOBe award ,dun waste ur talent and just flush it to the "salty water sea" or on me le i dun wanna be HURT by ur stupidly childish act tat’s causing and wasting my tears !!!