PATHETIC

here she’s sitting here late at night again….it was quite a good day today when she was fantalizing her day with her special sumone so she decided to tell him how she really felt but she doesn’t have the courage yet to really express it out. how can everyone do it so ezily ? as though they do not need to care wat’s goin to happen eventually ?

she knows things will turned out to be good and she always hope and pray maybe sumday she’ll get wat she want, wat she desperate for she admits that she’s desperate espcecially when watching wat others have n she doesn’t. She wants to have tat experience

but the most pathetic thing just happened she’s here sitting,crying and in the same time doing the advising thing,pretended like nothing happened. Every word she typed, her tears rolled down from the corner of her eyes, down her cheek and eventually onto her blanket…………she’s there trying to act bold n strong tat nothing had really happened and starting to give advise as though she’s pro in those stuff. it’s torturing to tell wat he shud do to get back with a girl whose not a single percentage showing she’s tat girl…..she wanted to just curse him in the same time n really show him how she really felt tat time but he was just too dumb to even notice the difference in how she normally chats with him.

as she was crying with the soundtrack music " KIss goodbye" from the movie "the holiday" serenading her soul, her fingers run through the keyboard, searching the letter L …..O…….L and the "enter" button was hit.

the only song tat can only describe wat she is feelin rite now is leona lewis " keep bleeding" it’s as though she’s betrayed by her own feelings